Do we plan a family vacation for July that has us all sleeping in tents? Or, will we have a newborn then and therefore we should try for a rental house? Or will we need to call the whole thing off at the last minute?
Do I go to a museum conference in May?
Do we start a front yard garden project? (Of course!!, after the basement is more done).
Was a fortune cookie that said "Daughter, July" a prophecy? We would be thrilled with "Boy, May" too!
Ugh, that leads to me to think about August, which would be our second anniversary of waiting. August would be another bill and probably having to re-do our video and letters. Please God, not August, not two years of waiting. Please before August. Ok, I will be banishing that horrifying thought now. Good bye negative thought....... bye, bye.
Back to a more upbeat and reflective tone. Sometimes it is liberating, having no clue, truly feeling like WTF, we'll just see, letting go. Oh, how my old meditation teacher would love to hear me say that. Yes, adoption is a huge exercise in letting go - we let go of all privacy, some cash, our notions of what our family would be like, etc.
Darn. Letting go. Is this a lesson I am supposed to learn??
Probably.
How do you, dear readers, let go?
SV
i guess it depends--somtimes i think i have let go of too much of me since becoming a mom--let go (especially) of my health, my personal time,my appearance, social life etc. so that is a balance everyone strikes differently. you have some control over that one.
ReplyDeletebut letting go of the feeling that you have control over the parenting process is different. for me (as you know) realizing i just couldn't control everything, and keep my baby safe and happy, was a hard thing to learn. i am still a little behind the curve with this aspect of parenting. so maybe you guys will be ahead of the letting go curve when your baby arrives.
the cat will probably have lots of trouble letting go. be prepared for protest through any means he has.